Day 22

There is really nothing quite like day 22 of a 21 day fast...

Breakfast consisted of a glorious Egg McMuffin, and lunch was a cheeseburger, greasy fries, and a chocolate milkshake. The milkshake I actually was having dreams about.

Glorious.

So for 21 days I've been fasting with the sound. I did the Daniel fast, and for those of you who aren't familiar, there is no meat, dairy, or any non-whole wheat grains. Quite do-able, yet so hard...

I realized something, well, a lot of somethings. The most important though is that I am not really all that good. I mean I try to be good. Yet, even when I think I'm being good, I'm not. And, anything that is good in me, is from God. I realized this during week one when I ate a piece of red velvet cupcake at work. whoops.

[John 15:5-6 Dwell in Me, and I will dwell in you. [Live in Me, and I will live in you.] Just as no branch can bear fruit of itself without abiding in (being vitally united to) the vine, neither can you bear fruit unless you abide in Me.I am the Vine; you are the branches. Whoever lives in Me and I in him bears much (abundant) fruit. However, apart from Me [cut off from vital union with Me] you can do nothing.]

Truly, I am nothing without Christ. I can't even follow a special diet for three weeks. Sometimes I can get so caught up in "trying to be good." I go to church every Sunday, I do my homework (usually), and I try so hard to "be better." But the truth is, without Christ, everything I try, fails!

Good news is, Christ is living in me! :) woohoo! I don't have to "try" to make myself better, He wants to do it for me. I just have to surrender myself to him, and He does all that hard work. Eventually, when I abide in Him, He is the natural overflow of my life.

Why don't I just do that ALL the time? Seriously, there is rest and peace in Christ. "Trying" is exhausting. I give up trying my hardest all the time.

So here's to resting in all the Lord has provided for me this weekend...chocolate milkshakes, steak, and venti skim lattes.