Kind of weird to realize this is my last real summer until real adulthood. My last summer of being blissfully irresponsible and spontaneously reckless. On one hand, I cannot wait to be completely independent, yet that panging sense of responsibility seems daunting, scary, and strangely foreign. To my relief, Christopher, my other half, has got this issue in the bag. Money-wise, I have never seen anyone so competent and aware of the dollar signs. I'm beginning to recognize and learn that Starbucks coffee should be seen as a treat, not a place where your order and name are proudly known by all of the baristas. (heeh...whoops) Not only is money an issue that I can't seem to wrap my head around, I have zero idea what I am going to do after I graduate. I know that my purpose in life is not to sit on a swing all day like I thought it was when I was five. I know Christ has called me to be a worker for his kingdom. I know He's called me to be used as a vessel to meet the physical, spiritual, and emotional needs of my community, whatever that community looks like. But what DOES that look like... ???
I know God will open the right doors and lock the wrong ones. Trusting him completely and unabashedly? That is something I am going to find myself praying over and over again.
Friday, July 30, 2010
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